Just sat down to write something, although what I'm not quite sure yet.
Maybe I'll talk about my love, and how I've decided to finally accept it... At least that's what I've told myself that I've done. Then I look a bit deeper and wonder if that's really what I have done, or just what I've told myself... I still feel... empty. Numbed. Like I'm holding off and holding back from the deepness in side of me.
Why? Because I don't want to live with the knowledge of my power.
Why? Seems strange, don't it.
Because then I could never go back to pretending to be small.
And why is that a bad thing?
Because then maybe I'd depend on nobody.
And again, why is that a bad thing?
Because ultimately I may feel so alone. I may feel like I am the only one who really knows me, and in that the only one who really loves me.
I will feel like I have no one. Because if I don't need anyone, then why would I love them/be with them?
Because I will uncover myself absolutely. No hiding places, all of the truths unveiled...
What will I become. That's what is the hardest part, the most difficult piece of the problem- Because I don't know what will happen when I look for the truths inside of me.
More scary than going to deserted lands, mysterious places, and dark corners is the path that lies within the truth in my own soul. Our ideas shape our reality... And by delving beyond my ideas... Well, then, what becomes of my reality? What will I be able to hold on to?
I would be free-falling. Spinning incessantly. And then, be swiftly plucked up by the air... And I may float. I may swing. And I may soon find that I can fly.
Freedom with the wind that carries me, because only when I let go of my fears can I soar above it all. Only when I let go can I allow the wind to carry me, streaming along to the serene and wonderful rhythm of life and love....
Drop the things holding me down and find the truth that I am meant to rise to...
Let myself fly. For my own love for me... And to help others see that they can fly as well, and just as high. And for them to help others as well...
It all starts in our own beliefs and decisions.
And I chose to let go and let love.... As hard as it may feel.
I powerfully believe that I can, and I know that you can too.
I <3 you.