I think that's the position that I'm in right now. I have limitless journeys that I can take, endless opportunities, and all the time I could possibly have to do this.
I am pretty healthy (other than the part of recovering from mono) and I have all the resources to set foot. The millions of doors of opportunity are in front of me, and I'm cowering in the middle of the room.
Before now, I always had something holding me back.
The biggest chain was school; I did not feel like I could do exactly what I wanted because a large part of my space was taken up by an educational system. So I would imagine what it would be like if I didn't have school; I imagined doing great things and living my life as I dreamed. But that pesky school just got in the way. The mandatory days of school would get in the way, or I was always too tired to fulfill my destiny.
And now, I have everything I once considered "if only." "If only" I had complete freedom over my day. If only I had no large responsibilities. If only I could do anything I wanted and not have anything holding me back besides myself.
I have everything I could possibly dream of for setting a foundation to my journey. So why don't I start?
I keep feeling that I am in a rush, yet I forget that I have nothing set in my day.
I keep thinking that something is holding me back, although what it is I cannot place.
Maybe it's just me. I guess it has to be. What if it's that I have a fear of the unknown?
I think that the hardest part is starting something new when it doesn't yet exist. It's exciting and so beautiful, but actually starting it seems to be the highest challenge.
It's amazing to be alive, and to live is to truly be open to living, loving, and learning. So I need to take that step and live, love, and learn to my fullest.
LOVE, acacia ann <3