Hello! So I arrived in Japan around 45 mins. or so ago. I sat next to two awesome people on the plane & we became friends over the process of our 10 hour flight from SFO to NRT! It's really great hanging w/ them, now were @ the Tokyo airport w/ all of our things together, but still it brings up stuff that feels nervewracking to me. So, in a way, I think it's a great opportunity. So now we're lounging in Tokyo which is pretty great. Amanda fell asleep & I feel like I'm going to also. I think I want to wait until I'm on the flight though & then pass out. Then I can sleep without distraction for almost 6 hours :D :D :d :d & I can sleep the rest @ BKK if I'm still tired after that! Aaah this is getting exciting + more realistic haha. :) It's fun being in this Japanese airport, too. I think I'm going to explore it a little bit more in a little bit. I love all the little fun things. :) LIke, my receipt is almost all Japanese. In a way, I am thankful that I got my period & the worst parts of it will be done & over before I get to Thailand/Chiang Rai. Okay I'm definitely noticing how hesitantly I am talking & how self-conscious I'm feeling. I think that's just a part of the trip: going out of my comfort zone. And I hope that I'll learn to love this experience instead of stressing. So, I am seriously just so excited to get to New Life Thai Foundation. Probably a big part of it is that I'll feel like it's a safe and comfortable place to settle, and I will be there and call it home for the next month + feel safe + in a great environment. I think it's interesting how much the boat shakes for me when I feel so stressed when things I am used to being current are changing. I think it's a great learning experience, though. I am learning a lot from this trip already! And I am looking forward to experiencing and learning more through all of this. I think the most important thing to continue doing is to stay present and in the moment. Oh, and love myself/ Don't feel like I need to "prove" myself to other people, and: accept life just as it is, now. Stop resisting, because that causes negative things to flow in my reality & around everyone else. Choose love over fear EVERY TIME and love myself as I am.
I will write again sometime super soon.
"Life passes you by. Don't be wasting your time on your own."
"Too shy to say that you need help; You & everybody else."
"As your heart gets bigger, and you try to figure out: What's it all about?"
<3 Ahhhh I love this song. <3
I'm in freaking Japan. Meeting & making friends with absolutely amazing people. How can my life get much better than this right now?? <3
It's time to let it go <3 It's easy if you let it be.