is that when we love ourselves and constantly work on building ourselves up and being the most authentic people that we can possibly be, this directly effects other people and subconsciously encourages everyone to do the same thing. Instantaneously.
Ahhh, I feel so tired. I feel a good kind of tired, though: the sore, aching tired that means that I know I've done something today, I've accomplished some goals…
The main goal there being to just go. To just do things. I've held myself back for fear of what could be without realizing that I am capable and fully dealing with those things I was afraid of before, right now. The things I have dreaded in the past, are the things I am living with right now. And they are not bad- they are just here. And I am starting to know and realize that the things that I fear right now will also eventually be a present moment, in which I will just deal with them. No fear needed or involved, other than the dread and anticipation of what's to come. But that fearful place never comes; only the situation, and my reaction to it. And I realize again and again that I am more capable than my fearful mind seemingly wants to believe that I am.
That's the beautiful reality of fear: is that it is not real. Well, it is and it isn't. But what is not real is the emotional state that I pretend during fear. Because I realize whenever I am actually in the moment I was dreading beforehand, that my reactions to events are not as crazy and far out there as the emotion that my fearful mind imagines. Meaning that even in those seemingly fearful situations, I deal with the situation much better than my mind previously would give me credit for.
So that's what I've been focusing on today: crediting myself with the knowledge and faith that I am capable, and that this present moment is what is important to be in and see clearly.
Okay, again, falling asleep and mumbling/ hoping that this post makes some sort of sense… :)
Good night. <3