this question has been circulating in my head for a long time. I want to spend my life doing all that I possibly can and being all that I can be.
But where do I draw the line in the sand of obsessing on this? I know that I have been enveloped by this idea of "right way" lately, always wanting to do and choose what's right and best, my head hurts though because I end up getting consumed by the thought of "what if I don't do the right thing?" And the fear of the amazing things that won't end up lining up correctly if I don't take the right steps. Worrying that my whole life path will fall apart if I don't end up long the right thing at the right time. No this leads to me never feeling settled and always searching for what's best. And never really living in the moment because I am always thinking about and planning what's next. What an exhausting way to live. And I chose this...
The irony being that what is really truly best for me is to actually connect with this present moment. For me to be right here and right now. <3
Falling asleep. Good night.
My hair is still showered in sand from going all the way underwater in the freezing cold Santa Cruz beach/ocean today. I'm so glad I swam all the way in. The temperature was so uncomfortable at first but I stayed in (the second or third time haha) and MY HEART IS HAPPY because I did. To submerge in the ocean- nothing quite like it.
Gnight. I <3 you.