I feel amazed at the knowledge that Thanksgiving is the day after tomorrow… This year, it feels like it has come around the corner so fast!!
So, this leaves me with feeling the reminder of being thankful… And that I have been lacking in gratitude lately. I have SO MUCH to be thankful for… And I have, admittedly and regretfully, been passing it all by and still focusing on the bad things I have created in my head….
So, this is the wake-up call, opportunity, and reminder of being THANKFUL for so so sos so so sos sosoososososoo many things.
-I am alive.
This tripped me out thinking about last night. I was thinking, wow, I get to sense this world. I get to be alive. I get to use my eyes and SEE this thing called life, I get to reach out my hand to hold another's, my lips to kiss and feel the tender touch of a lover, I get to breathe sweet life into my nose every second, and exhale thoughts, worries, and help to relax within. I get to feel the bitter cold of the winter wind, and I get to look out to see the glittering lights of the city with my eyes. This is all incredible. And as long as I am alive, this incredible gift to experience life will be forever with me. So thankful for this.
-I have ones that love me and that I can love back
I can work on expressing this love and show those that mean a lot to me, just how much that they mean to me.
I have felt fear when I think about appreciate someone fully, maybe because I feel that something will happen to make them leave once I do. Or that they won't accept me fully as I am? I don't know. I have a fear that if I let things go good, they will right away go downhill. I think maybe this is a common fear.
Regardless, I don't want to live my life feeling concealed and in hiding based out of fear: especially when what I feel I am hiding from is love.
So, I love. And I am thankful, now. Today.