I came here to Thailand & to New Life to find/refind my purpose(s) and my passions in life. So, now that I have been here for around 11 days, I am starting the thinking: what do I want in this life? What do I want to do, to accomplish? Is it movies/music? The craziest thing in my opinion happened today. I got an email from Regina at the Meisner Technique Institute, replying to an email I had written back in February, asking if I am interested in joining the fall session, which will begin on Monday, Sept. 14th + will meet on Mon. + Wed. from 7-10 Pm. She says that the classes fill very quickly so she wanted to reach out to give me the opportunity to schedule an interview with Jim Jarrett before the class fills, since I previously expressed an interest in possible enrollment - back in February. Ahhh! Is this the Universe sending me a message suggesting what to do after Thailand? And I was just talking about the Meisner Technique Studio to people the other day as we were eating, which makes it feel much less accidental, more like a message or something. Wow, this is huge. I wasn't considering going to SF and/or studying with the Meisner Studio. This is pretty amazing, though, and the opportunity- I am really thankful for, that she reached out to me. I think the Meisner Technique embodies a lot of the same values that I want in life, and that New Life values, so in the beliefs-sense, I think they're similar. I don't know what to do. But not in a bad way. It is very exciting thinking about what I'll be doing after I leave New Life/Thailand, because that's when my awakened U.S. journey will be starting. This is a journey. I feel so incredibly proud and thankful of myself for sticking with it and going through it. Okay, I'm going to let these thoughts go. I think that I'm going to read more of When Things Fall Apart; "Heart Advice for Difficult Times" by Pema Chödrön, lay down, maybe meditate, and let go of the things that might be scaring me. I am so incredibly happy.
Oh, and I may do some life coaching soon at New Life. I think it may be a smart idea because I really just want someone new + wise to talk through this with and possibly get some good advice, or at least have someone to talk to.
Alrighty. I'll write probably soon. I love you.
<3 Kacie hmm… acacia? ;)
---Marisha called me Acacia today, and I actually really liked it. It sounded like me. Okay, I love you.
I love you. <3 <3 Kacia ;)
I don't feel quite done writing hahaha. I think I am still thinking about what to do, especially after Thailand. I hope that these weeks will help. Ahh okay I'm stressing myself out now. I think this happens every time I think too intensely about what to do with my life. It gets to the point where I'm not excited or dreaming - I'm dwelling on unknown space.
Okay, I feel done now.
Love, Kacie /Acacia <3