So, today, Ivanna and Lu are leaving and going to Rome. And I got the most sweet gift hanging from my door handle this morning! It's an ornament hanging thing - haha - with a big beautiful blue elephant at the top and then dangling balls. But the note that Ivanna wrote was especially what got me. It says, "KACIE: I am still so surprised with the magnificent person that I discovered in you. You are kind, modest, smart, soldiery. You know exactly who you are without external influences. You have love, you are love, and you deliver love. I am grateful with the life to let me meet you. Thanks! Keep being this way. The world needs more people like you. 15/7/15 IVANA" WOW. I actually cried when I read it. The fact that someone I respect + value said that to me means so much. <3 And now I'm going to figure out what to say to Lu + Ivana in this morning's community meeting… Ivana- Thank you for being so warm-hearted, loving, and funny! I won't ever forget that card game we played where you couldn't stop laughing. I know that New Life holds a special place in your heart for you, and I really hope that you come back to it someday soon. I hope that we stay in touch and I wish you the best journey in life.
Lu- You are so funny, kind, and such a great friend. Thank you for all of your smiles and for the fun times and great conversations we have shared. Thank you for being you! I hope that the rest of your travels are so much fun, and I hope we will stay in touch. I wish you the best in life! Thanks for being such a good friend.
Alright. going to look over these and then go to the meeting.
Good morning. I love you! <3
9:20 (?) P.M.
I really appreciate something that Marisha said to me after tonight's women's circle; we talked about hosting classes & sharing with the community, and I told her my concerns about coming off as if I am better or more special than anyone else. And she said that she struggles with the same feelings, and suggests just going for it. She told me I am kind and have great and wise words to say, or along those lines. And then she said, you know the people that talk and people seem to turn and listen and keep wanting to hear more when they're done? I see that in you." Wrong wording and all but it was something like this. And that really means so much to me. I really honestly appreciate Marisha and her willingness to open up, learn new things, and work on honesty -- as well as bringing people together + uniting. She is special, and I think she's special because she is holding + realizing her potential,
This life is miraculous,
But it's hard to explain
One day I'm dancing in the sunshine,
Then I'm sheltered from the rain.
This life feels complex, but sometimes so simple.
It's strange that something so large, so vast,
Might also make sense, right in an instant.
Life can feel overwhelming; underwhelming, also.
The rain may wash away, And the clarity may come.
And then, it's gone, in an instant, leaving us cold and wet.
Life can feel confusing - especially when I try
to understand it. I can understand life
when I let go. But try means resisting,
and everything is lost when I begin 'trying.'
letting go does wonders; yet it still seems so hard to
do sometimes. I've been holding on to some
things so tightly, and for so long, that I seem
to not know my own existence without them.
I know that it's bad, and that it's making life harder for me. And yet, I mindlessly ponder: What would I be without these destructive tendencies? And I don't let myself see the real answer.
I think it's because I know what I'll be : at ease, powerful beyond measure. connecting and trusting other beings. Being fully what/who I truly hope to be. And I think that it may be scaring me.
:) <3 Kacie