So I am on the final flight to Chiang Rai, yaaay! Even just through this small bit of travel experience I feel like I've gained more confidence & knowledge and done what I always try to remember: being present. Okay, super rocky because we haven't taken off yet. I will write more later. <3 :)
I'M HERE!!!! :D Hahahaha
[later in the day of] July 1st
"With the right thoughts, you can create the right life."
or something like that via Ralph Smart. So I am here in Thailand, wondering if this is and New Life are the right place, but it's probably more of my anxieties than anything else. Anyways, we all had lunch today; I had an awkward encounter with a girl after not knowing that it was a silent lunch, and then I just felt somewhat alone & out of balance after that. The silent lunch was amazing, however; I really did taste and explore the flavors a whole lot more. The potatoes and corn were especially absolutely delicious. So, anyways, after I finished my silent lunch, I ended up walking outside. I went to the "yoga table," as I'll call it, and saw people silently relaxing. Something told me I wanted to sit somewhere specific, but at first, I didn't listen to it. Then I decided I should; what's the worst that could happen. So I sat where I wanted to, and just looked out at the beautiful mountains and lush covering, all of the green--in Thailand! And I realized that I have nothing to worry or stress about while I am here; all the activities are focused towards helping, as well as relaxing and developing into my greatest potential. So I realized this in a singular thought, and I just felt blessed. And what do you know it: I ended up talking to & becoming friends with the man that was sitting next to me, Walter. I guess that it goes to show how loving your life can be if you 'go with your gut,' or your instincts. Okay, I am super tired. I feel like it should be bedtime right now (prob. because it usually would be), so I'm going to go out and help out with things once I'm finished writing this. Wohoo! Yay. And then I'm going to the talk about kindness, hosted by the director, around 4:30 PM. I just realized that I have a choice in this, and if I go after what makes me happy, it's my decision; I'm not trapped in this; I chose this. I think I'll begin to understand this farther the longer I'm at New LIfe. I just want to remind myself that I chose this path & this destination for a reason, and that reason is not to be miserable, trapped, or run away from things. I chose this because I love myself, and I believe that I will achieve a greater level of awareness once I let go and live with mindfulness in presence. Arrgh I want to go to bed & feel as if I'm going to! But I am not; I still have some of the day left, and I am going to make the most of it.
good night :)
L<3 ve you.
Love, <3 Kacie