So, I am putting down my entire month deposit tomorrow. I have decided to stay for the rest of July. AND OOH I hear thunder!!!! So today/night was pretty amazing. I walked on my own, planning to meditate in the forrest hall, but then ended up on a path of my own, hahaha. And now I've got scrapes and itchy legs and ant bites haha! After, I went & hung out in the pool + hung out w/ Jeremy more. He reminded me of something good; I told him about my dilemma of staying/leaving, and he told me I can take it at my own pace + spend a lot of time alone, meditating, if I want. He said that's what he did his first month: he stayed mostly by himself. It felt like a comfort to hear that; and he is actually amazing. He has a kind of magnetic attraction when we're talking - I keep pulling in closer. And his bright blue eyes… Okay, I won't talk more act this because it's not my focus while here as far as I know, and I don't want to feel 'swept off my feet' just at this special person who we share amazing condos together. So he'll be gone for the next 3 days, in Laos. When I told him that one of my passions lies in music and singing, he said to me that when he gets back, that I'll have to sing for him. :) So nice. So basically-- OH + then a perfect pizza night + a good + funny French movie: The Green Beautiful! And my purpose of writing right now is just to mention how blessed I am to live in such a harmonious, safe, loving + Normal community! Searching for things within myself is great when it's an inspiring community where I can learn to grow + love + change, while being around other safe + loving people! To have my intentions supported by this place is pretty welcoming + it feels great to express myself, try out new stuff, & be ME in a community of like-minded people that are searching for / bettering themselves as well. So, I told Madelaine tonight at pizza night that I am going to put down the entire rental fee for this month tomorrow morning. Something intuition-related is telling me to stay for this month, so I am listening to it and trusting it.
So thankful for this place.
Good night. So looking forward to sleeping.