Today & tonight were both really fun. Ahh I feel so distracted by all these bug bites on me!!.. Anyways… So today, (Thurs), I tried out TRE for the first time ever. It's a way that you allow your nervous system to shake and dance in order to release stress, tension, negative emotional buildup, etc. And I feel amazed at how much it did. My legs were dancing crazy, energy wiggly jolts bolting through to my legs, and I had a lot of emotions I felt that were going away. I had thoughts, memories, and feelings show up - random ones, such as Piper, and my dad. But I think the things I was working on & letting pass have all been rooted in negativity, stress - harmful emotions - And I think I was working on that. And I realize that I have so much built up stress/tension, so I know that more TRE time will be extremely helpful for me.
Another highlight of my day was tonight! I ended up changing seats @ dinner and sitting w/ Joey, Leaf, + Jaremey. I was glad I followed my intuition. Then, when dinner was done, Ivanna & Lu sat w/ us, and then Carol Anne as well. We talked for a long time + Joey talked about his love of South America. We talked about fruit & culture + bla bla ;) The main fun I want to write about is from after dinner, when we played a game. Hahaha it was crazy yet such fun. And then Maritia and Yasmin eventually joined us after looking at us weirdly w/ curiosity for a while, hahah. The game was mostly challenging all of us to do crazy + funny stuff. So, for example, for one card I picked, I acted like a dog and had to do tricks. The funniest ones, I think , were Ivanna having to laugh each time someone else laughed, Maritia + Yasmin saying 'you are with me (I am w/ you?)" when eye contact was made, Lu having to sit under the table for an entire round, Ivanna saying 'a storm's a-coming!' each round, and all of the spontaneous snorting and lots of laughing. It was so much fun. And I hope that it gave Yasmin a fun last night. :)
OH, and Lu got a dreadlocks, thanks to Jeremy's hard work!! I've realized a pattern in myself of becoming strange + possessive over someone I like + almost fantasizing a life together, which is not healthy or helpful, and I think mostly thanks to society's values that I have learned as my "own." & so I am wanting + working to see all of this as it really is, not what I "want" it to be, and not making people into someone that they're not. A lot of great body healing + nonjudgmental work with my mind, I have been doing today, and I am feeling so very thankful of me and living compassionately + w/ loving-kindness each moment, and starting to see my life improve, my health + relationships improve, + my overall happiness + fulfillment & feeling of content increase.
Well I am falling asleep from such a quality day. So goodbye for now, and good night.
(I Am the Doc showing movie Sunday 7:30 PM)
I <3 you.